Pills and Sickness

I have had my hands full over the last week with sick kids. I've had kids with head aches and kids on anti biotics and kids on anti-depressants (totally not my choice but the choice of my hubby's ex wife who is apparently a complete idiot). So to top off our medicine filled week we ended up with a few kids with the stomach flu. Now I know there isn't really anything you can do to get rid of it but we at least tried to mask the symptoms with things like pepto and tylenol and lots of water and rest. I hate it when kids are sick cause you never really know how sick they are. How much of the whining is sickness and how much is just whining.

There are so many things on the market now pill wise though that it is hard to keep track of what is for what illness. Like Phentermine. What is that for?

Money Matters

Way back when and I mean WAY back I ran a small business out of my home. It was great and awful at the same time. For the first little while I could only accept cash or checks. After having a number of checks bounce I decided I wouldn't be able to take checks anymore. Of course that narrowed it down to cash only and we all know that nobody spends cash anymore. Everyone uses credit and debit cards. So I had to find a way to accept credit and debit cards but again if you have to way to authorize them you end up in the same boat as you are with checks so I found authorize.net. It helped me out and I'm sure it will work wonders for you too.

Awful Mother

Sometimes I feel like I just want to scream. Honestly it is just extraordinarily difficult to get through the hours of the day without having a break down. This usually occurs when we have all the kids. It's not that I don't like my step kids, because for the most part I do. It is that they are raised very differently from my own and they have very different rules and attitudes and trying to deal with kids that treat you like shit seems at times to be impossibly difficult.

Today is such a day. Today I am counting down the days until they go home to their mother's house which thankfully is only a week away. The worst part is that I feel like a cow for thinking like that. They are my husband's children. And he loves them and I love him so I should be grateful they are here with us. And I'm telling you that I'm not. It is too much for me to bear at the moment. I feel like I am going to explode into a million small pieces. Of course, it isn't just the added stress of the kids it is that there have been a lot of things for me to fret and worry about over the last few weeks and it is all coming together to feel like a weight I can barely hold up.

I'm terribly excited for the hour to come when I have to take them to the sitter's and go to work. Awful, I know.

Letter To My Ex

Dear Shithead,

Okay, yes I realize that shithead might be taking it a bit far but seriously you piss me off. Your blog post yesterday may as well have been titled 'A Letter To My Ex'. (like my post, lol)

First let's you and I come to an understanding... I know you may not believe this but I really don't care much who you are married to as long as the woman is nice to our kids. And I don't mean the fake nice bullshit that your new wife pulled when I picked up the kids on Sunday. I mean actual niceness. Like nice when no one else is watching niceness. As long as that one requirement is met I could care less.

I harbor no ill will toward you so I'm not sure why you have to make it seem like I was such a horrible wife. In fact I was pretty great given the circumstances and I'm a damn nice ex-wife and believe me I know what I'm talking about here because I know a few ex-wifes myself and they generally aim to be mean to their ex. I'm nice. I'm accomidating. I'm not a super bitch. So quit complaining about how shitty your life used to be. You should have spent a day as me back then, but do you see me bitching about it. No. And you want to know why that is... It's because I am honestly happy and I'm so far past moving on that I can't even make out where it was I moved on from anymore.

In short...get over it. Of course if it makes you feel better to go on and on about how awesome your new life and your new wife are in a meager and weak attempt to upset me go ahead and do it, but please don't post such things where our children can read them. They are smart kids and all they need is to see that their dad thinks their mom is a horrid bitch.

Keep living the awesome life buddy,
Your ex-wife Bella

Too Vain To Sunbathe

If there is one great thing about being pregnant during the summer it is going to be the fact that no one will expect me to look great in my swimsuit. Honestly they will probably be startled if I even wear one. Actually I don't have any plans to but yesterday it was so hot and nice outside I really wanted to go for a swim. When I couldn't figure out a place to go where no one would see me. I considered laying out and tanning for a bit in my mom's yard, but again, someone might see me. And though I am pregnant I am still very vain. Which is probably totally pathetic, but whatever, I am who I am right?

Looking Baggy

I am all about the t-shirts at this point in my pregnancy mostly because I don't quite have enough of a stomach that I look 'for-sure' pregnant. I mean some people might guess that I am pregnant while others will probably just think that after a year of marriage I have offically let myself go. So in an effort to semi-hide the baby bump until it actually looks like there is a baby in there and not just a couple of extra cheese burgers, I have resorted to wearing t-shirts. Mostly Love's t-shirts. Which doesn't seem to bother him. It would totally piss me off if someone was wearing my clothes all the time, but then I guess that is just another difference between men and women, huh

Are you Kidding Me

My sister keeps getting strange things in the mail. Things she didn't order for herself but that someone has obviously ordered for her. About a month ago she got a wrinkle cream that came with a "gift" invoice. You know the kind that say thanks for your order but don't give the cost info and such. So a few weeks ago she gets another package. This time it is a weight loss pill. In fact they claim to be the best diet pills that work.

At this point she is more than a little bit pissed off. I would be too if someone I knew was sending me shit like that. I mean honestly if they were doing it to be nice they would take credit for it. So for them to send it anonymously they are being bitches. She thinks it may be her sister-in-law. I'd cry if my in-laws were like that.